Realizations

Last Friday, April 12th, I visited the residents of AL during Happy Hour. Previously, my last visit at Aegis was a downer, but I am happy to report back that this visit restored my hope in pursuing to help these people.

For Happy Hour, residents were entertained by two talented men who sang and performed music for them. I have never seen the residents in such a good mood. They were drinking (which is a little hilarious), dancing, and enjoying themselves. At first, I was a little uncomfortable throwing myself out there to interact with the residents. I watched my mentor Joe dance with a few residents before I finally decided to dance.

I danced with a very adorable man named Clarrence. He was so happy to be up on his feet and moving. I also danced with a wonderful woman, Helen. Even at 97, she can still groove to "Spanish Eyes". (Her eyes were also blue, if I may add). A feeling definitely struck across as I danced with these residents. I felt so much joy in seeing them happy because on regular days, they aren't as upbeat.

I learned an important lesson that day, my purpose. I'm there to bring them happiness... something that is confusing to find with Alzheimer's/Dementia. My participation really makes a difference in their day. But, I'm also beginning to realize that even if I bring them joy and happiness, it's not what I'm searching for.

I had a very insightful conversation with my mentor. It is comforting to know that even though I'm leaning towards a different direction in nursing, I have not disappointed anyone (or myself). Rather more, I'm viewing this in a positive light. I found out that Geriatrics is not for me.

As I complete my mentor hours, I will continue to strive to bring company and happiness to those residents. Even though I don't want to go into geriatrics nursing, it doesn't mean I will stop making a difference in their lives because they sure did make a difference in mine.